My experience in music

For my whole life I have always loved music. I listen music on my Ipod in the car, when I come home from school, before sleeping and when driving my bycicle. However, I have experienced first hand that it is way more easy to listen to music, than to actually compose and play music. I always had the dream of being able to play the music that I have on my Ipod on the piano instantly. Therefore I have followed two years of piano lessons. However in these two years I have concluded that I miss the patients needed to study a song before you can actually play the song flawlessly. I didn't study enough and progression was slow. This conclusion has led to the fact that I stopped following lessons for the piano after only two years. Now I play piano often just at home and I study only the songs that I really like at my own tempo. This said it can take me just one week to learn a whole song but if I don't really feel like it, one song can take me more than three month. Also I like to ''freestyle'' on the piano, which means just playing what comes up in my head without any thinking involved.